Plans?

or not... my biggest pet peeve ever, is when i make plans and they fall through, or plans pop out of nowhere and you cant make time for them because... well, it wasnt planned. so aggrevating. so please, just dont cancel on people, its annoying.

Why Oh Why...

updates people.

so my mission papers are in. mostly. not sure they've been entirely submitted but the case is now out of my hands. crazy eh? the more and more i think about the mish the more nervous and surreal this whole endeavor becomes. along with all this futuristic thinking comes the marriage card. not that im "thinking" marriage, but honestly what girl DOESNT think about it?

it feels like now more than ever, i am surrounded by the married couple type. and with my new florist job, its even worse. especially sicne june and july are the biggest wedding months . plus the fact that both my ambitions in life revolve around people getting married. what did i get myself in to?

i find myself considering and dreaming about how my married life will turn out. not the who, but the when and where and what my marriage will consist of. i think about where we will live, in what we will live, what jobs we will be doing, what goals will we be working towards. all sorts of shibiz. but why oh why has my mind turned to these things when im about to leave. seriously. its annoying. and although i know thats not the direction my path is heading right now, its still haunting me daily. please make all the cute married people go away.


until then, i will try to stay focused on the matter at hand. p.s. i think i decided i do want to travel alot. not to all the cliche places, but my own dream locations. i want to experience unfamiliarity, and not speak the same language as everyone around me. anywho. these are my thoughts as of late. happy day.