I Am.

I am: my own person. ashley nicole farr
I think: wayyyy to much
I know: the gospel and my family is the only true way to gain everlasting happiness
I have: many hopes and dreams for myself and the life i want to have
I wish: i was in a band
I dislike: finals at the end of the semester
I miss: being a kid
I fear: for my future family
I feel: excited to serve a mission
I hear: LIGHTS : )
I smell: pumpkin spice
I crave: the high i get from music
I usually: have a creative project im working on
I search: the world for answers as to why life is so complex
I wonder: where and when i will get called on my mission ha!
I regret: buying so many clothes when i have to do laundry
I love: colorful things
I care: about kids who dont have what i do
I always: like things on my lap
I worry: about having or not having enough money
I am not: who i want to be yet
I remember: what i planned my life to be like right now. its none of that
I believe: everything will work out how its supposed to
I dance: in the form of jumping
I don't always: eat the best
I write: notes to myself everyday
I win: the hearts of the ones i love ; )
I lose: battles everyday
I never: want to live in utah when i get settled
I listen: to good music!
I don't understand: oh so many things
I can usually be found: in deep thought
I am scared: with uncertainty
I need: to not procrastinate
I forget: where im headed and the importance of that all too often
I am happy about: who i am

All Except For...

I had the best time at Owl City last night, got to see LIGHTS, and this other really cool band Paper Route. (Could use a better name I admit.) but still good haha. I even got first in line, or CUT to the first of the line, and made it to first couple rows right in front of the stage. AWESOME!

Everything was going just swell and we're almost to owl city when this girl pops out of nowhere from my feet. ok... that was weird. she is like 4 and a half feet tall. alright. sure. tiny, frail and apparently gonna die or have a panic attack from all the moshing. i fear for her life. kenny and i work our very hardest to keep those in front of her from bashing into her. we couldnt even enjoy the last couple songs from LIGHTS. gay. where are your friends girl? no answer. do you want to get some air? no answer. space? noanswer. alright. you dont want to be helped? fine by me... except i cant just leave her to fend for herself! she literally gonna get smashed. thats when it happens.

She gets shoved to the floor and as kenny and mark are trying to keep people from falling onto/into her i grab her up from the floor. no doubt, not without a couple feet landing on her. ok, ah... we gotta get you out of here, she shakes her head no. AYKM right now? come on! she gets shoved again. awesome. she ends up landing in my arms, thats when she goes COMPLETELY limp. COMPLETELY!!! uh.... kenny! i need help. i dropped her to the floor. she was heavy, and im not all that strong ok? luckily this other guy saw and helped kenny carry her out. poor girl. completely unconscious. we had no idea who she was with or anything! it was insane. i hope she mad it out of there ok : (

Then we continued on our way to owl city haha, it was fantastic. so amazing. but on the way home of course it starts pouring. we had the super awesome opportunity of hydroplaning. so great.

Other than that! fabulouso haha. my grandma says when things go wrong it makes it more memorable. well thank you kenny for a night to remember : )

Summer Days Just Sittin Around...

I forget how much I REALLY dislike the winter until I am straight up faced with the summer. I forget how ornery I become in the dark, cold abyss of the winter months, until summer comes again! I forget how much I miss the warmth until Im basking in it... and THEN. without any warning it gets snatched away jsut like that within a day. i hate it. I love summer. It makes me happier than anything else. Im not kidding. If I could be in a place where in was all sun all the time I owuld be perfectly content with justhat and nothing else. Well except like people and stuff. Sigh... I wish it were here to stay. I mean really stay.

it makes me happy to run around,

it makes me happy to bask in pure sunlight,

it makes me happy to eat popsicles

and play softball

and swim.

awww... please! just come to me.

Latest Craze

K.

Officially am in love with this soundtrack.
Just sayin.

Floral Arrangements.

So here are some of the few things I have put together. Im trying to start a floral design career haha. Working somewhere, starting up my own something. We'll see how that works out. Let me know if you like.

The cube design. very popular for weddings nowadays.

a VERY VERY simple wedding bouquet. granted, not the best i can do for sure. i had limited supplies and color choices for this beast

And in honor of the current season, a little easter/spring business.In the meantime, here is Kennys and my latest adventure. CABELAS!! can you believe he had never been? crazyness.

how fun are we?

The OTHER Gender

i was at walmart tonight, ya know jsut doing my last minute surprise birthday party/game night shopping. ya know... like i do every saturday night, when i pass this teenage boy. yes, i do this quite frequently but the large amount of items in his arms caught my attention. this is what i saw...

vault (a large case of vault, not just one can of it)

ding dongs... once again. a large package of them

and last but not least, easy mac.

what the TYPICAL teenage boy diet. i just think thats funny. i dont know about you. but...I JUST THINK THATS FUNNY I SAY. anywho... you would never see a girl carrying those 3 items.

The Fakes

So in addition to my floral designing with real flowers... I figured I could do fake ones too. How cool is this? Its my new ambition. Im gonna try it out. Wish me luck...

A Wee Bit Weird

you wanna know what i love? when a chinese lady can tell all about you just by looking at your ear. yes i am indeed being serious. this is what she gathered from my familys ears...

daddio- most goal oriented person in the fam, had to set his goals high and work to achieve them

modge- obviously the most sacrificial person. is that a word? i think soo... well anywho that shouldnt impress you too much because moms usually are.

but wait...

it gets better.

myself- the most emotional person in the family, base my decisions off of emotion. then it was decided i had the biggest heart as well?

shaq baby- the perfectionist... who woulda thunk

brooklyn- (this was a bit off) the most entreprenuer minded. eh... not so much?

kenziloo- the shortest temper. and she also said, the best communicator. but we all agree she meant worst communicator ; ) kenz would also jump out of the car first if we passed by someone hurt. idk

cass- the most difficult to control. the most opinionated. wow theres a shocker

and kenna sue- the most easy going and best tempered. nailed it! haha

funniest thing ever. she was being totally serious too. had never meant any of us until when she made those accusations. good time.

you wanna know what else i love? my lakers baby. pretty rockin game tonight against the golden state warriors. boom baby. thasss what im talkin bout. such an entertaining 4th quarter.

and also... THE MISSIONARIES! yes i do love them. and temple square. and the missionaries... and hamburgers. did i mention the missionaries? well i meant sister missionaries haha. they are developing a little reserved space in my heart. maybe cause i'll be one shortly. they are beyond amazing. mayb e i'll go to temple square. apparently that IS a possibility. crazyyyy. k now im just getting off subject. i've been doing that recently on these here blogs. sorry. i'll stick to the current topic at hand from now on : )

but i love you all! have a good night!

Snowed In

This weekend was fabulouso! seriously, a wide variety of events lead to the greatest weekend in a long time.

- my sister came home from cedar city

-olive garden blew up (not really, but a gas leak did cause everyone to evacuate the building) it just so happened to be on the day i work a double

-it continued to get worse and they claimed we would be closed ALL DAY! plus sunday too : )

-snow storm up in here by my house. it usually gets way worse than anyone else for some reason. now normally i really dislike the storm as anyone who knows me would say. but the wind was so terrible we HAD to stay inside. like i said, snowed in : ) kenny and i babysat my sisters and we got to play games all day and all night, have a sunny with a chance marathon and watch loads of movies. i havent had simple fun like that in awhile and it reminded me of being a kid and i missed that. so thank you snow for staying just long enough for me to rediscover my childish side but to go away as soon as i want to be outside haha. you were perfect. no take 2

-and sunday my sisters, kenny and i risked getting in trouble with the parentals to play dominoes for like 2 and a half hours. everytime we'd end a round we would sneakily start over again as fast as possible so if they walked by it appeared as though we were continuing the same round haha. many laughs and i love that. i love my sisters. shaquel, im so glad your here for this week. i couldnt be HAPPIER!!!!

" the older you get the more important family becomes, and slowly but surely you start to realize that."

Owl to the Citayyyyy!

mhmm mhmm, thats right. i get to go to owl city : ) love them. all thanks to kenneth jones who can actually keep a secret for like weeks upon end. its great. your great. lifes great. thank you owl city for making my life complete, you do something to me that makes me smile and i like that : )

Sugar BUM!!!

Dear Shaquel,

I want you to know that I love you. You are my best friend and always will be. Sure we have our fights sometimes, but I know you would do anything for me, and I, you. I really hope you have an awesome day! Everything will be juuuust fine. You're stronger than me anyday and I've always looked up to you for that. Seriously.... I love you sugar bum : ) (Wish I could do this to you riiiiight now.)

Love, Ash

Its Official...

Alright guys... so the big news is finally out haha. i am going to be like the girl in this movie, i have decided to go on a mission. Yes, it is that time. now dont freak out, im not gonna be leaving anytime soon. i just barely decided. my birhtday isnt until august, so i can put my papers in may. thats the most planning ive gotten done so far. i need to get those papers and start filling them out. any help, tips, advice would be much appreciated. also, for anyone who wants to, i am taking guesses as to where i will be going, submit an in country and out of country guess and if anyone gets it right they get a little priiiize : ) so there you have it. thanks for those who support me. you're GREATLY appreciated.

Pretty

Arent those flowers beautiful?! DAHLIAS. my favorite. lucky for me, i have a boy who tried 3 different places just to find my some of these things. i love his surprises, they never cease.

heart you k.j.

Ha. Ha.

This is a little taster of what my day was like. this actually looks like my sister today. BEST. DAY. EVER. i love my life.

so i went to my sisters boyfriends farewell today. our whole family went. it was in grantsville, which is pretty far away. sheesh it was far. so incredibly fun though. the events that transpired?


-viewing the great salt lake. which just gives me a boost for when i move to back to cali. haha. miss it there.
- having everyone in the sacrament stare for literally like 10 minutes as we tried to find seats in a sold out crowd. most embarrassing thing thats happened to me in a while. trust me, worse than it seems.
- hysteric laughter the entire hour car ride home because we had to take all our food in the car.
- dad goes over a speed bump without slowing down while 8 people have plates full of food and drinks without lids! plus half the 8 were 15 and under. that= no good when it comes to balance.
- finding one cazilllion hairs in my brownie AFTER its in my mouth visible at eye level.
- dad going 100 miles per hour, fearing for my life. and being chased by some random guy who thinks hes cool and can tattle tale to the cops. "ooo im so flippin sweet"
- brooke and cass stickin their heads out of the window at 100 mph. cass losing her candy on brookes lap because when having an open mouth at once again, 100 mph, there is no way your slobber and any other contents will stay in your mouth haha.
- playing air guitar
- oh many others but my mind has come to a complete close. i laughed my head off today. felt so good...

until next time friends haha.

LAUGH IT OFF. : )

p.s. good luck austin gumicio. your gonna be simply amazing

Huh?

So... life has been just a TEENSY bit crazy. but ya know, we deal. Thats all i can really say. I found myself stuck in alot of different situations and i just feel stress, and anxiety and sick to my stomach. THEN! who comes to the rescue? none other than... da da da! Bewitched haha. I loved them when i was little. I randomly found this song on my ipod and who would have ever known, these words would heal my sad aching little heart. Thank you music for making life ok at times. i owe you big time.

Hold On

You've always been a tough girl,

But you feel you're about to break.

You're feeling stuck,And out of luck,

Watching your dreams all slip away.

Been working mornings in the kitchen,

And working nights at the corner store.

As your life flies by,You wonder why,

There's gotta be something more.

(Chorus)

Hold on,But don't hold on too tight.

Let go,It's gonna be all right.

Don't run away from what your heart is saying.

Be stong,Face what you're afraid of.

Come on,Show 'em what you're made of.

I know it's hard when your hope is gone,

But you gotta keep holding on.

You're hear a voice that's calling,

And it's telling you to make a change.

It's time to fly,And say goodbye,And move on to a better place.

You know you gotta take the first step,

To get to where you wanna be.

Just get on track,And don't look back,

'Cos it's the only way that you're gonna be free..

(Chorus)

Hold on..You're gonna make it,You're gonna be stronger.

Hold on..Hang in there, baby,Just a little bit longer.

Hold on..Yeah, and you're gonna be fine.

Don't give up,Be strong.

When the going gets tough,You gotta hold on.

I know it's hard when your hope is gone,

But you gotta keep Holdin' on..

February. 2010

The missionary i waited for for 2 years has finally returned home...

Sherril and Bob Wedding

The Venue...

2 of Sherrils kids are in the marines, look how handsome. : ) Waiting... The sweetest moment Husband and Wife HER family The delicious food

Have a happy marriage and life. You guys are beautiful : )

Oo Baby I Love Your Way... Everyday

Im having a love affair... mmm.

For some reason Im really loving the idea of moving to Florida when I finish school. Im gonna do it ya know...

My afternoon snack EVERYDAY! No joke, part of it might be because there is nothing else in the house, but nonetheless, I'd eat em anyway.

The idea of summer finally being here, come faster PLEASEEEEE! I cannot wait for your beauty anymore.Of course everyone loves a god lipgloss, aw this is simply magnificent. Try it friends.

THE BACHELOR. oh man, this season is makin me more antsy than usual, i even dream about it, thats when you know somethings on your mind alot ; ) and the new season of LOST! im still in awe...

And last but not least, my floral design class. My future might be takin a turn folks, stay tuned : )